What to do when a relapse occurs

I've had depression for who knows how long now. I can't even remember when it first started. Anyways, last year, at school, I finally found a very supportive group of friends who stayed by my side through my tough times, and for the year it felt as if the depression was finally gone. But unfortunately the majority of these friends were in senior year then, and pretty soon they all left for university.
That's when the depression came back, and it hit harder than ever. I don't think it's ever been this bad before. Suicidal thoughts are constantly emerging and re-emerging, and I've resorted to self harm to cope. I desperately want help, but I don't want my family to find out since they have dealt with similar experiences with me and unfortunately make it worse by saying I'm not strong enough to brush it off and deal with it on my own. However, one of my friends in university is still very supportive and hears me out, and still helps me out, but I'm reaching the end of my rope fast.

What do I do?

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