my mother is lonely !

My mother passed away seven years a go. It was July, the coldest and worst July I have ever lived. That July is few weeks away now. 

Last night I saw my loving step mother in my dream. Sitting in couch of two seats by herself. She was looking down and deeply sad. I can feel her great sadness from far away. I came close to her and asked her if she was ok. She said " I am sad" and she gave me a worm hug! 

It felt so diffrent. I turned my back to her while I am still between her arms and kissed her hand. Again it felt so different. It feels like mother's, but I didn't want to say that because I didn't want to hurt her. I had a crochet in my hand that I was working on. I continued doing the crochet and asked her what's going on. She said " I am lonely ". While still between her arms I said " you're not lonely, am here aunti "...." ". She then said " who is aunti "....".

at that point I knew she was mommy! And I woke up.

 

When mom left us. I got depressed for 3 years. With a professional help I got out of depression.

Forgive me mama ! I love you so much !  

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