Fear, low self esteem, strip clubs, hookers and prostitutes

I've slept with prostitutes about nine times. The first time was when my wife was pregnant with our first child. I feel guilty about this but not ashamed. It was fun. I enjoyed it. 

I don't believe I'll do it again. I've frequently gone to massage parlours and strip clubs over the past 5 years, I don't believe ill go back to those either.

All of these things were about escaping my reality. The harder things get the more likely I am to indulge. I think this must be how addicts feel to a certain extent.

I won't tell my wife and I don't think she'll ever find out. I've had std checks and I'm clear. I have a great life and I am moving on.

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