Jealousy. Can't get over my husband's past!

I struggle every day with the fact that my husband has slept with other girls. I have also slept with other guys, but for some reason, I just can't stop thinking about his ex girlfriends.

It's so bad, it's to the point that when we have sex, it's not special because he's done it before with other girls. I even picture it. And wonder if they were better. I want to constantly be reassured that he loves me the most and is the most attracted to me. In fact, I wish he could say he didn't even care about them or was never even attracted to them at all. Which, he has admitted before that they didn't mean anything to him, he just didn't want to be alone. But I think he may have just been trying to shut me up.

I even think about his silverware and don't want to use it because one of them probably used it!

Omg, this all sounds so ridiculous when I read this back. But this is real and very painful to go through. All I can think of to do about it is pray and keep my comments to myself regarding his previous relationships. But when I keep my feelings inside, tears start to form in my eyes. If someone else is going through this, how do you deal with it?

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