Scared to be free

New Years Eve.

Depressed. Anxious. Tearful. Lost. All in a group of friends. I went into 2015 anxious of rejection as just two months earlier I'd admitted to self I was same sex attracted and held that to myself for fear of rejection.

Whilst I have told quite a lot of people in 2015 I became acutely paranoid on NYE that not everyone in the party knew and I crumbled. Totally disintegrated. And had an awful evening planning a trip to the doctors for antidepressants in 2016.

I hate new years eve and this one was just a bit more depressing. 



User Comments

Hopefully the doctors can help you and maybe some form of therapy would be a good idea.  As hard as it is to go through with the appointments its worth it, it helped me a great deal.