Im alone

Im sitting here just realizing how alone i really am in this world. My mother has no idea who i am. I have very few friends. College feels impossible. Others my age are partying, meeting new people, and i cant help but torture myself and keep myself from talking to anyone. Im scared that ill develop a new relationship with someone. Im scared that as i get older, people will run away more frequently. Im scared i wont have a wife and kids of my own. That ill remain alone and just die. Who could blame them. I dont. I hate myself just as much as they do. just want to give up. just go to sleep one night and not wake up.

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hey, college can be tough sometimes. Its a whole new environment and can be totally overwhelming. Do you not want to go to the parties or is it not your thing? Are there any social events you'd be happy going to?