My brother tried to kill someone

It's almost exactly 10 year ago now. I was 7 and my brother was 21 and already diagnosed with schizophrenia. But as it is, he didn't want to take his medication. My parents tried their best to keep me away from him, but since he lived in the same flat it was almost impossible.

It was an nice evening in autumn, my mum made lasagna and she, my sister and I were watching Gilmore Girls. It was a weekly ritual to watch it together. 

The phone rang which was weird back then. I don't remember why, but it was. I heard my mother scream "NOOO!". She talked really fast and whispered something to my sister and they cried and i was 7.

I was 7 and I had no idea what was going on. I heard something about a knife... about my brother. He left 2 hours prior to go to the mall. 

They told me to go to our neighbours. It was now 9 pm and I was 7 and ringing at my neighbours door and as she asked what I am doing here alone so late I broke down crying.

The next day in school everyone talked about "the crazy guy" that tried to kill a young woman who was just working at a juiceshop in the middle of the mall.

I was 7 and my life changed completely that day.

 

 

 

 

 

User Comments
Anon-1

I sincerely hope that your brother got the help that he needed. What a terrible thing to have to live through at so young an age as you were at that time. I can't imagine what it was like. I hope that you've been able to lead a relatively normal life yourself, since then.

Anon-2

Nobody should have to deal with what you went through, let alone at so young an age. I have a schizophrenic uncle, who tried something very similar once. I was never close to him, though; I never lived with him, I didn't see how his illness affected him day-to-day. I was never threatened by him, personally. 

I hope that you're doing better now. I'm sure your life is still affected by your brother's illness, but I do hope that you're able to cope with how it changed things for you. 

Anon-3

Mental illness runs in my family, and for some reason I've managed to randomly meet a broad variety of people who have also had to deal with it. I'm no professional, though; I can only imagine what it must have been like to have to deal with this kind of experience. My family members, for the most part, take their medication, and as of yet I've not known anyone with violent tendencies. I hope that both you, and your brother, were able to find the support and the help that you needed, to deal with your respective situations. You have my sincerest best wishes for the future.