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I feel like no part of my life is on track. I have been single for 6 months and am unable to find any kind of fulfilling relationship while it feels like other people around me are settling down into long term relationships. I feel so lonely. I was recently taken out of a student teaching placement because the teacher decided that I wasn't up to her standards: issues for me that are largely related to disorganization as well as depression and anxiety. This was a huge shock for me and I feel directionless and don't know what to do.
I have have been looking for work. A guy that I was casually seeing recommended me for an open position where he works and just as I ended things with him because he's looking for a casual hookup while I am looking for a relationship. I really like him but the disparity between our needs was becoming too painful.
I've had two recent occasions where I have been rejected by men I was interested in and started to cry... Alcohol was involved in both of these situations. In the more recent one, a guy I thought was sending me signals (because the supposed signals were pointed out by a friend of mine) ended up flirting with a girl who's also my friend. She asked if it was okay with me if she pursued that. I told her it was and then left and began to cry elsewhere in the bar. I couldn't find my purse and therefore could not leave. She found it for me and walked me home since the guy she flirted with was unavailable that night.
I am am feeling very worthless, useless, and unlikable. I struggle with my weight and wonder if it will keep me from ever finding a relationship even though I want to believe I can find a man who likes me for who I am. I'm starting to believe he's not out there.
For first note, I have been battling sever depression since I was diagnosed at 7 years old, currently 21. Through my course of life, my parents divorced when I was 13, father committed suicide 2 years after that, struggled with a bipolar, self centered, greedy mother whom showed me no affection and if she loved me at all is questionable. During highschool I, was thrown into rehab for smoking weed ...
So, for the past one month I've been feeling down..Most of my friends that are living in my town and whom I've known for even 7 years are getting in a relationship or going to dates and I'm here, stuck with studying for my final exams which are coming in 3 months and also very nervous about graduating from high school in a month and a half and boarding to college in the fall. I'...