Self Loathing is the worst

I have a loving husband, two amazing children and yet I feel like the worst woman in the world.  I sink into self loathing so easily that I start to depsise myself.  Its like I can't control it.  I have made an appointment to see my GP, which took all the energy I could muster but I know that I need to get better.  I can't go on this way but my family deserve to see me as I am when I am feeling good, not overwhelmed by an unecessary depression all the time.  I hope this will help as I feel so useless most of the time it becomes hard for me to think that I deserve any sympathy or love.  Deep down I know this is wrong and as I write it down it seems even more ridiculous to me.

 

Wish me luck, Im trying to beat this and I hope anyone reading this can have the strength to help themselves too.  We deserve happiness as much as anyone else, so here's to finding it.

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Anon-1

Hey well done for reaching out to your Doctor, I know how hard it can feel.  Sincerely hope that you get the help you need and start feeling better about yourself soon.