need words of encouragement

Suffering from depression and guilt of only being a part time mom to my kids. They are 9 and 11 and need their mom. I spend most of my time on the couch. I have no motivation and am on medication. The guilt of being a bad mom kills me. My son is on electronics alot. I try hard to get him playdates but he is shy. I just dont know how to turn this situation around. Feel like I am sruck in mud. Any words of encouragement are appreciated.

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Anon-1 First, you have to be there for yourself. It sounds like you're depleted. Get rest and spend some time doing only things that make you happy - like going to the park for an hour, if nature fills you up, or take yourself out for dessert to a fancy restaurant. Doing stuff for you will help buoy you. You have to have something first, to be able to give something next. If you do small things to make you happy, you'll begin to have aha moments about what you can do for your son. It will amaze you.